Okay, so some of you seem to be concerned about my lack of sleep.
It’s going to be all right. Again finding myself in a “stare at the screen” situation last night, I decided to read through some old posts. And when I say old, I mean old. Like, back when I was hosted on Blogger. A lot of those posts are back from my early college days, when I was managing a ridiculous schedule. Absolutely ridiculous. I was a full-time honors student with a 4.0 GPA, worked part-time, put in 10 hours a week in volunteer hours, and had a lead role every semester. My posts from these days have titles like “How to Manage Time You Don’t Have“, and “Hell. Pure, firey, raging hell flames.” They chronicle the ridiculously large amounts of work I was doing and the very few hours of sleep I was getting. I powered myself through work nights on Ben and Jerry’s, cheese steaks, and pizza and pumped out papers of all shapes and sizes, back in the day when I was an English major.
Needless to say, my early college career was a fat one.
In one such gem, I detail the amount of work I finished in one evening:…At 8pm I had a Philosophy paper (2-3pgs.) on Plato’s Allegory of the Cave as it related to my college experience, 3 English journals (1-2pgs each) on Lysistrata and two plays in the Orestia, a Media Paper for Adolescent Development, and (get this) a 10 page research paper on Theatre in India and China, for which I hadn’t even the slightest formation of a thesis yet. You’d think the walls should have caved in on me, or the universe might have come to a gigantic collision in my bedroom. Instead, I wrote them all on the brink of insanity (and aided with the proper motivation tools) and got A’s on them all. …
Look at that! I was a champ. I pounded out to-do’s like a pro. At least back then when I stayed up all night I was doing productive things, like comparisons between Chinese and Indian Theater. Now I just glaze over on websites.
I should be embracing this new phase in my life. Instead of lying awake in bed for hours and not being able to sleep, or taking pills (two words: Heath Ledger) I should just accept the situation and resolve to do productive things while awake at night. I’ll live my life as a zombie for a short while but when I return to my healthy habits, I will praise the knowledge I gleaned during my no-sleep period.
Actually, that’s probably the worst idea I’ve ever had. Ending post, getting sleep. ♣