Okay, so some of you seem to be concerned about my lack of sleep.
It’s going to be all right. Again finding myself in a “stare at the screen” situation last night, I decided to read through some old posts. And when I say old, I mean old. Like, back when I was hosted on Blogger. A lot of those posts are back from my early college days, when I was managing a ridiculous schedule. Absolutely ridiculous. I was a full-time honors student with a 4.0 GPA, worked part-time, put in 10 hours a week in volunteer hours, and had a lead role every semester. My posts from these days have titles like “How to Manage Time You Don’t Have“, and “Hell. Pure, firey, raging hell flames.” They chronicle the ridiculously large amounts of work I was doing and the very few hours of sleep I was getting. I powered myself through work nights on Ben and Jerry’s, cheese steaks, and pizza and pumped out papers of all shapes and sizes, back in the day when I was an English major.
Needless to say, my early college career was a fat one.
In one such gem, I detail the amount of work I finished in one evening:
…At 8pm I had a Philosophy paper (2-3pgs.) on Plato’s Allegory of the Cave as it related to my college experience, 3 English journals (1-2pgs each) on Lysistrata and two plays in the Orestia, a Media Paper for Adolescent Development, and (get this) a 10 page research paper on Theatre in India and China, for which I hadn’t even the slightest formation of a thesis yet. You’d think the walls should have caved in on me, or the universe might have come to a gigantic collision in my bedroom. Instead, I wrote them all on the brink of insanity (and aided with the proper motivation tools) and got A’s on them all. …Look at that! I was a champ. I pounded out to-do’s like a pro. At least back then when I stayed up all night I was doing productive things, like comparisons between Chinese and Indian Theater. Now I just glaze over on websites.
I should be embracing this new phase in my life. Instead of lying awake in bed for hours and not being able to sleep, or taking pills (two words: Heath Ledger) I should just accept the situation and resolve to do productive things while awake at night. I’ll live my life as a zombie for a short while but when I return to my healthy habits, I will praise the knowledge I gleaned during my no-sleep period.
Actually, that’s probably the worst idea I’ve ever had. Ending post, getting sleep. ♣
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Your age is irrelevant but remember that what you can manage at 19 is not the same as what you can manage at 29 and so on. The older you get the harder it is to cope with everyday pressures.. I am now 72 and there are simple things that I could do once but no longer, like even tying shoe laces, or standing on a ladder.
Maybe you are expecting too much from yourself, and yes… you are right we are all extremely worried about your lack of sleep
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That’s actually a very good note – I’m so impressed at everything I used to carry on my back. Not that I don’t still have a strong one, but you’re very right . As usual.
🙂 I have every intention of not setting an alarm tomorrow. Even if I lie awake in bed all night, at least I’ll wake up whenever I please. That should help.
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Lysistrata was porn before porn was invented. Just sayin.
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That’s brilliant. This comment made my morning… Oh wait, it’s now the afternoon. Ooops.
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You should subscribe to her blog if you haven’t already – her posts will do the same 😉
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Nice.
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Lack of sleep happens to be something I am expert on, unfortunately. As you probably know some reasons for lack of sleep are; too much on your mind, lack of exercise, (by the way how is p90x going?), and worry. I solved the “too much on my mind thing” by putting a pad on my night stand, and writing thing I didn’t want to forget by morning down. Problem solved. The exercise thing…I’m work’ in on it. The worry thing, I always try to remember that well used but true prayer.
God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
But I truly think things are doing to be alright, they have a way of working themselves out. I think he has a plan we just don’t get the blue prints. Sometimes we just need a sounding board, someone to bounce things off of. Not necessarily give advice, or solve things. Just help you work though them.
And if that doesn’t work, I have a porch, some good wine, and am always here for you. The dogs miss you and you always seem to sleep well here! I WILL SEND YOU A TICKET.
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Writing some of the stuff down that’s on my mind definitely helps. Sometimes I can’t get to sleep because I just lie there and can’t turn off my brain. I think there’s a lot on my plate and a lot of big decisions ahead for me so my head uses the time i should be sleeping to try to weed through it all. And I DO sleep well there 🙂 And I need some dog time, as suggested in my recent posts. Dave said the lilac festival is up there right now – I’m so bummed I didn’t know earlier! We miss it every year 😦
We’ll have to plan a visit soon – feels like forever since I’ve been up. Thanks for the comment 🙂
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Yes, it does seem like forever, and I am having Jackie withdrawls.:)
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Do they include shaking or just foaming at the mouth? I’ve always wondered.
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Loved Heath Ledger’s roles in his films. Just imagine how someone’s talent can range from Patrick Verona (10 Things I Hate About You) to the freakin’ Joker (The Dark Knight). He died way too young.
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Yes, I was incredibly sad when he passed on. He was just making a huge turn in his career and was unbelievably talented. Also, “10 Things” is one of those movies I will watch over and over and over again.
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